Friday, October 12, 2007

Our dreams come true, sort of.

Well we finally broke down and leased a horse for Dylan. Unfortunately things just aren’t working out well enough and we aren’t going to keep up the lease.

When I leased the horse, Chiquita, I honestly thought it would be easy. But it’s not. I forgot that Hayden is only 2 and wants to do whatever her big sister is doing. So while Dylan is having fun riding, I’m trying to keep Hayden from screaming and running and throwing things. When I get Chiquita from the pasture I have to yell at Hayden to stay out of the way, move back, stay by the tree, look out! Poor thing. We paid all this money for Dylan and Hayden just has to sit and watch.

We’ve only had the lease for a couple of weeks and I already feel a sense of energy that I haven’t had for years. Just being that close to a horse makes me so happy. The smell, the feel and warmth is awesome. Even though I’m not riding I’m still getting the needed fix. But hearing Hayden cry and scream takes it away. I’m pulled two different directions. I want Dylan to have a horse, I want to have a horse, but as long as I have to take Hayden along it just doesn’t work.

So we are not going to re-lease Chiquita. At least not while Dylan still needs help catching her, saddling and bridling her. Once Dylan is old enough to do this herself, she can have a horse of her own. This means I won’t be getting my thrice weekly horse fix. And I feel so sad about this decision. Because I know my renewed sense of energy will go away until I can be near a horse again.

I feel like an adult making a tough adult decision. But I know I’m making the right one… for now.

4 Comments:

At 9:50 PM, Blogger tommiea said...

It must be frustrating to be so close to something that gives you energy but know you can't have it. Know that the time will come but it is just not now.

 
At 6:21 PM, Blogger Kellan said...

It does sound like a tough decision, but it also sounds like you have thought it through. Your daughter is darling. Thanks for coming by my site - hope to see you again soon. See ya.

 
At 6:50 AM, Blogger CarrieB said...

My neighbor Wendy is going through the same thing right now. She sold her last horse when her daughter was two. Now that daughter is nine and Wendy jumped right back in, thinking it would be the same. Life changes and sadly, Wendy is finding there is just never enough time. It is frustrating for her.

That's wy my only hobby is scrapbooking...paper won't go bad from neglect!

 
At 5:50 AM, Blogger Suburban Turmoil said...

Sorry about the horse. Hope things work out for you.

On the other hand, you've won the Madallie gift certificate! Woo hoo! Maybe that will give you some energy! E-mail me at suburban.turmoil@yahoo.com with your mailing address and I'll forward it on to Madallie. Thanks for playing!

 

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